How can a kid respect their parents when their parents don’t even respect them? and respect as in not yelling at them when they want something, or yell at them when they get annoyed, or just even yelling at them for sake of yelling at them? Why do parents even deserve our respect if all they do is yell at their kids all day cuz of their little “pet peeves” that they have. 

seriously cant wait to move out.. (i cant believe i am actually saying this..) but i seriously cant take these shit anymore >< 

Gahhh today was just soo annoying. Literally wish I can just move out considering how much a bitch my parents have started to become. 12 days left till I won’t have to deal with these crap (that I don’t give) at home.
So basically today, I woke up and went to school to get my diploma. Then came back and ate and started to play league with couple of my “friends.” And as you know, league of legends have prolly the worst community ever. And my “friends” who doesn’t even know any better started to insult others for playing so bad when they themselves are playing so bad. And when they are playing bad, they blame others for playing so bad which causes them to play bad. It’s like wtfffff… And that pissed me off this afternoon
And then, while I was playing, every 5 minutes my mom would shout from downstairs “stop using the computer!!!” Which adds to the annoyance.
And then at night, when my dad came home, he started to complain about little things I do (and yes I m a hypocrite cuz I complain but I really hate it when I hear ppl complaining)
And at night, my parents went out and i did my chores (took out the trash).. Well apparently I was supposed to take the trashcan out too (which I don’t ever do) and then when my parents came home, first thing they said was “HEY, WHY DIDN’T U TAKE OUT THE TRASH, u think the GARBAGE MAN WILL COME TO OUR BACKYARD AND GET IT HIMSELF?” And I was just like, gahhhh I really can’t take these shit anymore!!!! O.O like seriously, I know this world isn’t fair but at least not yell and talk shit about everything I do… GIVE ME A FUCKING BREAK.. I just graduated!! O.o I mean on a normal day, I wouldn’t react like this, but the whole league stuff just pissed me off which makes me like that. And then at night, dad being a douchebag like always have no patience whatsoever, just told me to do some shit when I m in the middle of something, and dictating when I go to bed.. I M freakin 18 for crying out loud.. Let me dictate my bedtime…
So now here I m, stuck on my bed feeling like shit cuz the whole entire day was just SUPER ANNOYING. And I have to be honest, I was an asshole all day too but if ppl are treating like an asshole then ill be an asshole. -_-
As for the whole idea of loving my parents cuz they are trying to do everything for ur own good and crap. I have to be honest, I hate my parents.. Especially my dad. One of the few things that people need is love and respect. And I feel no love or respect from him whatsoever. Every time we talk, he always complains or yells at me for being an asshole and when he wants me to do something, he would yell and crap. I mean seriously, I respect him and don’t do shit at all and yet he just shows no respect AT ALL…
So yea.. I m done -_- cant wait to move out…

parents are starting to be a bitch again.. -.- GRRR 

well, finally, the day that i’ve been waiting the past 14 hours of my life has finally come: graduation ceremony day. The past 14 years of school has been really interesting. I mean, i really don’t know how to describe it because there are times where I hate it (aka high school) and times when I love it (pretty much the whole entire 14 years). I still remember getting my first homework in 1st grade, when back in the days our life was so innocent and simple. I remember getting so excited about homework (never again..) and the joyfulness when i finished it (it was copying a word couple of times in taiwan). I mean, I ALWAYS love doing homework. But i dont know what happened in middle school, when the concept of “loving” homework turned 180 degrees around to “i hate life becasue of homeworks”. 

Throughout the past 14 years, it was definitely a roller coaster. There were ups and downs and well… downs and ups. I made friends, lost friends, kept friends, and eat friends??? I still remember the last day of school in Taiwan, and the first day of school in America. I also remember when i was introduced the concept of “love” in 3rd grade (thank you Jordan.. whenever u are in this world). and ever since then, I just like this concept of “love” despite how much “hell” i had to go thru, and is currently going through right now. I mean, it has its benefits, because you really can’t appreciate a person until you realized that you like them, i mean at least it wasnt until I started liking Jonica in middle school, when I started to think all the positives things about her when everyone else tells me the negatives, and i would always defend for her and be like.. NUHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. And now, well, today, I feel like crap right now because I really can’t understand the reason why I feel like crap. is it because its a graduation??? finally? or its because I might not see suren ever again after this? my personal feelings and emotions are always a mystery to me, because of how much it fluctuates. And so, before I bore the rest of your life out with my total nonsense, I just wanna point out that I’ve made it. And the past 14 years of school will never be as successful without the help of EVERYONE that was a part of my life (18 years ftww!!). And obviously, shouting out to Jonica for pretty much shaping my middle school and early high school life and now Suren for shaping the 2nd half of my high school life, as well as everyone else, haters, lovers, eaters, dreamers, ionno anyone left? 

but yea. the first chapter of life has ended and I can’t wait for the next chapter to begin in September. In the meantime, I like the idea of sleeping and eating and be lazy in the summer.. WOOT ok i m done 

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U know, all the feelings that you have for a particular person doesn’t truly come out until when it finally hit you that today’s the last day of school and that you are both going your separate ways after the summer…. :’(

Pretty satisfied with today.. went to senior award night, and got 5 cords! which was more than I expected to get…. it was funny cuz the French teacher told my other friends that I won’t be getting a cord for French Honor Society. But I ended up getting one for it„ which was.. WEIRDD.. 

and tomrorow I should be getting another cord for key club and + my stoll for Key club.. Afterwards, i will be ALL SET for graduation ceremony!! :D CANT WAIT!!! 

At the graduation ceremony, its gonna be SUPER exciting and at the same time„ sad in a way where ppl might cry.. (i wont cry.. LOL its hard for me to show my feelings.. publicly.. but yee), mostly cuz i mean.. after 13 years  (14 for ppl that went to preschool) of primary and secondary school, all the hard work put into those years.. its like.. FINALLY!!! done with part 1 of our life. And after that particular day, there will be definitely ppl I wont ever see again (some of them.. YAY.. but i m sure most of them.. T___T) but ya.. anyways.. GRADUATIOn next tuesday.. CANT WAIT for that! .. in the meantime„ 3 days of school left.. GOTTA FINISH STRONG.. LEZZ GO! D:< 

But since I am in a state where i am pondering about everything that’s been happening to me the past couple months or so, so why not. 

As tedious this entire thing is gonna be, this whole entire thing will be 100% truth, no lies. So let’s get started. 

The past couple of months, I’ve been basically if you use 2 words to describe it, its “slacking off”. School grades fluctuate between above a 3.5 GPA and below a 3.5 GPA. Why? 2 things: Minecraft and League of Legends. I knwo that those 2 things will ruin my life if i continue to play them uncontrollably, but its an addiction that I cant stop from doing. And from that addiction, my social life pretty much went downhill the past couple of months (like i had one before anyway..-.-). 

One of my goals this year was to find a best best best best friend. And in January, I thought i found one, but now, I think i was dreaming the whole time (and i am sure one of the reasons is cuz how anti-social I am). 

People said that to fix this whole “anti-social” issue, you just have to step out of your comfort zone and try to talk to people. My problem is, whenever i step out of my comfort zone, people either 1. don’t care what i say (which happens about 80% of the time) or 2. I embarass myself cuz I would do something stupid. 

One of the things I learned about myself (at least i never really realized that) is how bad I explain things. Every time when I want to express something, i can just never able to find the word to express it. As a result, many of times when i say “blah” people usually ignore it or tell me how stupid I am because I could not express the things I want to say in words… in English. As a result of that, whenever I am around people, I can never talk to them because I dont know what to say. Even when i have an opinion on something,  i just cannot tell my opinion about that particular thing persuasively, and the result is that people shutting me down by arguing with me. 

I hate arguments. mostly because I don’t really know what to say when they tell me their opinions and stuff. As a result, I usually just tell them that I aint gonna argue, (letting them think that they won or osmething) 

on a whole different topic, recently, I’ve wondered whether I made the right decision to room with Jake for a year starting this fall at UW. i mean, personally I like him, but deep down in my little heart, I don’t relaly like his girlfriend. I mean, I like courtney as a friend and stuff, but I am pretty sure she thinks I am stupid or something. Becasuse there are many times where she would say something about me implying how stupid I am. And hey, when I tel ppl they are stupid, they get pissed off and I ended up feel bad. But when people say something thats offensive to me, they ended up not being apologetic, and just cruise along with their life and offend me couple of times in the future. Maybe its cuz they know how anti-social I am? and that I won’t be able to shut them down without me going to jail for the rest of my life? 

Which brings up the next point. if Christians are taught to love their enemies, and treat others really nice despite how different they are, then how come everyone that were taught those things NEVER follow them?. 

Because, when i try to be nice to thsoe “Christians”, they ended up shutting me down offending me here and there, and thus.. making me feeling like crap and stufff… (dont wanna go into details).. 

but yea.. ionno thats just what i’ve been thinking the past couple of days.. mainly the whole social problems that i have thats just bothering me SO MUCH 

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just finished reading Mark of Athena… 
my thought: MR. RIORDAN.. YOU ARE KILLING ME WITH THE CLIFFHANGER…. D:<

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So as AP exams and “finals” approaches, stresses begin to take over the world. And for me, aside from these academic stresses, there are also other issues that add on to these pile of stress. And the only thing that still hold my soul and this earth together is the excitement of summer. 

Honestly, so far this year has been really good. It’s because in the beginning of the year, i was stressing so much about not getting into UW. And guess what? I got in! and then, afterwards, i begin to stress about not getting into this summer program thing i applied to. And guess what? I ALSO got in. And because I got into this summer program thing, it means I will be going back to Taiwan for the first time in 3 years! And that’s what I am excited about. 

Honestly, my life hasn’t been SOOO great socially. I’ve always wanted to start over and live in a completely different places and meet new people. And guess what? I got an opportunity this year. actually 2 of them. And that’s the main reason why I am EXCITED about going back to Taiwan and doing this summer prgram thing because I get to meet 349 people from across the nation of US and canada, and make new friends! and hopefully make some “best” friends. And after from this summer program, i get a month to do whatever I want in Taiwan (like literally whatever I want because my parents are not gonna be there!) so it’ll be like Eric Ma vs Taiwan. show.. (ya know?? man vs wild?? (ya.. terrible joke..)

and after coming back from Taiwan, i get about 2-3 weeks to chill at home before moving into UW, which is the start of a new stage in my life. And I will also be able to meet new people and hopefully, be a happy camper.. 

so yea.. everything up till graduation.. is really in my opinion not exciting.. but aside from the excitement of this summer, I honestly will be missing a lot of people after this summer because there will be people that i won’t see ever again. So.. hopefully before this summer, some of my main social issues will be resolved and that life will be A LOT happier as I keep on counting down till the day of graduation.